Friday, July 30, 2010

And I Thought It was 'just itchiness'. + Pretty PICTURES

Everyone told me how Chickenpox was nothing to be worried about. Just a bit of itchiness, ugly red blisters all over, and then, good as new!

They were wrong.
And Sal. You were wrong.

Its way more than that. My whole body hurts so bad! I have abdominal pain, really bad back and neck aches, slight headaches, and yes- even ear aches.
Plus those ugly little fuckers, are EVER-FUCKING-WHERE.
Excuse my potty mouth please.
I'm in pain.

And so I googled CP, cause thats what google is for, and SEE? I'm not making it up!
So whoever is excusing me of being a drama queen? Shut up.

Chickenpox (varicella) is often heralded by a prodrome of anorexia, myalgia, nausea, fever, headache, sore throat, pain in both ears, complaints of pressure in head or swollen face, and malaise in adolescents and adults, while in children the first symptom is usually the development of a papular rash, followed by development of malaise, fever (a body temperature of 38 °C (100 °F), but may be as high as 42 °C (108 °F) in rare cases), and anorexia. Rarely cough, rhinitis, abdominal pain, and gastrointestinal distress has been reported in patients with varicella. Typically, the disease is more severe in adults.

It also says:  

To relieve the symptoms of chicken pox, people commonly use anti-itching creams and lotions. These lotions are not to be used on the face or close to the eyes.

And of course, WHY would my doctor feel the need to tell me that? FML.

And did you know, in some cases, Chickenpox can be fatal?

Yeah. Just my luck.

So, anyway, now on to the good stuff?

I went to Lahore for a week in the beginning of the month. From there, we went up north, to the beautiful valleys of Naran and Kaghan.
It was breathtakingly beyooooooooooooooooooooootiful there!
And we had so much fun! The bus rides (we rented a bus), the stops in funny hotels, the gorgeous scenery, the river rafting, the picnics by the river side, collecting pretty pebbles, the jeep rides- with the rugged mountains on one side, and a sheer 347534587357 feet drop on the other... *sigh*. I guess now that I'm actually moving to Lahore, trips like that wont be so rare. I guess that's one of upsides of moving.
But the downsides still suck.

Anyway, feast your eyes on Pakistan's beauty guys! This is obviously not all of it- its just like a 1% glimpse.

The view from our rooms.

River rafting! This is on the calmer parts of the river.

 Don't you love my shoes? The water was so cold, it was threatening to give me frostbite.

Passing through a glacier in our rented jeep.

Pretty flowers.

Funny Hotels- Exhibit A. {No, seriously, who DOES that?}

Can you hear the water? Whenever I look at this picture, the music of roaring waves always fill my head.

 Lovely, no?
If you want the full effect, click on them to enlarge! My blog is retarded and I don't know hot to post bigger pictures. (Help please?).

And yes, I am the owner of all these, I have taken them all.

Comment and let me know what you think of these, if you've been on an amazing holiday-place this summer and most importantly, MOVIE AND BOOK SUGGESTIONS!
Because as we all know, chickenpox is aka ISOLATION. And I need something to keep my mind of the pain/itching.

On another note, here is my formspring!  
Ask questions.

Love and Sickness,


Wednesday, July 28, 2010


I have the chickenpox.

This sucks.

Plus an airplane crashed in some hills, in Islamabad today.

So thats worse.

Not a good day.

I'll be missing the graduation and carnival being arranged by my NGO, for the underprivileged kids, at the summer school I help run.
Thats like the GRAND FINALE event. And. I'll. Miss. It.

Just. FML.

And my so called BFFs suck.

Oh well. Story of my life.

I'll reply to you guys' wonderful comments later.. I'm totally out of it at the moment.

On the bright side... 31 followers!
Two new ones yesterday. :)

Ugh, Im so dizzy, and my body hurts so much!

Bye now.


Life is a bitch, I hope I dont marry one.

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Its Official, and Sad.

So, we're moving. Its a 100% official.
I couldn't believe it at first. I mean, I've lived in Karachi my whole life, and suddenly we're moving?
Felt a little unreal.
But its slowly starting to sink in, and sometimes, I'm even a bit excited.
Thats probably because my new room has a tiny bookshelf in it! Yes! Finally a way to display my awesome books.
And talking about books, I read two, recently.

Love You, Hate You, Miss You was touching and I really liked it. The whole relationship between Amy and her BFF was something I can understand. And I really understood how she felt when their friendship died. And I loved that hint of romance present in the book! It was sweet, except sometimes I felt like slapping Pat hard. BE A BIT MORE MANLY WILL YA?

Kissed By An Angel was super sad, super sweet and I loved it- except I hated how it left me hanging. The worst part is, I can't find the 2nd book in the Trilogy! And I have this bad feeling that in the end, Tristan is still going to be DEAD.

So that just sucks.

At the moment I'm thinking of what to paint my nails. A ruby red? A true blue? Or a pretty pink?

I think I'm going to read this book next.

I LOOOVE the cover. Its fun, and the girl is so pretty. I love covers like these! And I wish I could draw like that. :(

From Goodreads:

It’s a lousy first day on the job for Nina Blackman when a patient, loopy from the anesthesia, bites her. At least he was cute. But for real drama she can’t beat the next evening. Nina wakes up with a set of razor-sharp fangs, bionic vision, supersonic hearing, and a taste for blood. But there’s a good explanation: It’s her patient, Long Island vampire Greg Statleon. Actually they’re perfect for each other—if Nina’s willing to commit to one man for eternity.

Its sounds just like my kinda read with true loves, spunky girls AND I've heard it has a lot of LOL bits!
Cant wait to read it!

School starts this Monday. It will be so strange, not attending! I'll go meet my friends for sure, but still.
I hate changes you know? Every time, a major change occurs in my life, it ruins all the good parts.
 I hope this move wont be like that.
I really do.

Until next time.


Saturday, July 24, 2010

Just to Make things Clear- Taleem Sab Kay Liye! [Education, For All]

Just to make things clear: I don't have a boyfriend. Never did.
My emo posts are twisted and confused and are just a way to get that pent up, frustrated confusion out. Writing is one of the best forms of expression, and I like to take advantage of that.
Dont get me wrong.
I love all the detailed and concerned comments I get on those posts, [heck, I adore any comment you guys leave me] it shows you guys actually do read my silly little blog, and care enough to write that huge ass reply- but I feel like I give out the wrong message- like I'm involved in this passionate, intimate love affair and have been betrayed by the love of my life, and now I'm a broken vessel.  Haha, okay, so maybe when reading those posts, it does sound a bit like that. But seriously. Its not.
When writing my emo posts, I'm hit by this huge wave of emotion, this need to get all abstract and dramatic and write whatever floats into my head at that very moment. If there is a post titled 'Emo Post', I suggest you don't take it seriously. Especially if it makes you think I'm dying over some guy.
I do NOT want to be that girl.
 And, I dont think I am. [For the most of it.]

I'm just saying. Its not what you think it is. Its just weird.


Its been a bajjilion days and I'm still stuck at 29. I got 30 a few days ago but then, someone un-followed me.

I know. What a loser.
Now he/she will be totally missing out on the awesomeness that is, this blog.

But no. I dont get it, why would someone go through all the trouble of clicking unsubscribe?
Oh well.

But I'd still like to know why you did it.

In other news, I'm reading this book, by Elizabeth Scott.

From GoodReads:

You know, I always thought I told you everything, but there are some things I should have said but never did. I should have told you about the time I lost your new sunglasses. I know you really liked them. I should have apologized the time I ruined your brand-new skirt, the one with the beading. I should have apologized for a lot of stuff.

I’m sorry. I’m sorry for everything.

It's been seventy five days. Amy's sick of her parents suddenly taking an interest in her, and she's really sick of people asking her about Julia. Julia's gone, and Amy doesn't want to talk about it. No one knew Julia like she did. No one gets what life is without her.

No one understands what it's like to know that it's all your fault.

Amy's shrink thinks she should keep a journal but instead, Amy starts writing letters to Julia. As she writes letter after letter, she begins to realize that the past holds its own secrets--and that the present deserves a chance.

 I'm more than halfway through it and so far, its pretty good. I like Amy. And even though something so horrible has never happened to me [thankGod], I can somehow relate, and get what and how she feels.
Maybe its because both of my best friends moved away to completely different countries. I mean, I was still in touch with them, but not really, you know?

My internship at Taleem Sab Kay Liye [Education for All] is also about to end. One more week to go!
I hate getting up early in the morning, but aside from that, I guess I'll miss it. 
If you want just a gist- We're teaching approx 300, poor and under privileged kids at this government school, and so far, its amazing!
The kids love coming to school every single day, weather its for math classes or for fun events like the recent Sports Day!
The whole school is run by us, the dedicated team of Taleem Sab Kay Liye, and each and every one of us is proud to be a part of such an amazing entity- I definitely am!

Its awesome to finally reach out and do something personally. To try and help make our country a better place, instead of just grumbling about how the government is messing everything up. 
One little boy asked me, 'Teacher, teacher, aap log aglay saal aingay?' ['Miss, will you guys be visiting our school next year?'] and I replied with an 'Of course!' and you should have seen the way his adorable little face lit up. 'Miss hum bhi aingay!' (Miss, we'll come too!) he said jubilantly.

Little things like that make me so happy, I feel as if I'm making a difference, be it a slight one, in their lives. I was talking to a bunch of other kids, and they were telling me how before we came, school was  joke. The teachers used to either gossip amongst themselves, or text on their cell phones. It didnt really matter who passed or failed tests- you were promoted anyways. One boy told me how they were expected to study science- the teacher wrote down questions on the board and that was it. They had to search for the answers from their text books- which were in Urdu, and then if they wrote down the answer, or just left it at that, that was up to the students.

Government schools here are the worst kind of schools you can put a child into. They are always short staffed, and even then, 9 out of 10 times, the staff is horrible. There is no electricity most of the time, and there is corporal punishment to 'straighten out' the discipline problems.

I think we have definitely made a change.
We taught them how gutka/chaliya is bad for you, and how you can get horrible diseases like cancer by eating them. We had fun and informative discussions with them about ethics and things of that sort. We taught them basic english skills and guess what?
We're giving five of our brightest stars scholarships to private schools! One of the kids is so smart, he has actually done his O levels! We got him into Nixor (The A-Level college I go to.)! And he was so happy about that. It was lovely.

I can write a bajjillion things about how AWESOMETASTIC our NGO is, but as they say, a picture is word a thousand words.
Here is what its all about! You can find pictures and other information on the group. 
Is it not wonderful? 

Remember, if you like what you see, we're definitely open for donations!
Anyone can donate, and if you're interested, contact me through this blog! 

We're having a Talent Show for the kids tomorrow. There are going to be dancing, singing and other miscellaneous performances- and boy are those children talented! 

I'll be sure to post the videos and pictures on the facebook group so if you have nothing better to do, do check 'em out!

I gotta go now.

The Book Bloggers 'Got Books' event is going on at the moment. 108 book blogs participating in 108 book giveaways!
Trying to enter as many as I can- :D

Lots of Love,

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Emo Post

So, it happens again.

I was the Queen, now -a mere servant.

I was the sun, now -a roach.

I was begged for, now -shrugged off.

My Heart has been stomped on, and its a circle. A never ending ring. Make, break. And repeat. I have tasted it, and I want more, but the well has dried up.
Or rather, it is full to the brim, tantalizing, refreshing, glistening. In my reach, but as I run towards it, its just a mirage. A cruel reminder of reality's slap.

And a sharp slap it was. Made me bleed a little, on the inside. I was never this weak, pathetic thing. I was better than this.

Apparently not.

All I can do, is stare at the well, and others like it. I can magic the contents out, but its getting harder and harder for the 'blink your eyes' magic trick. Soon, I will have no control, non at all. Soon, it will be over.

Playing hard to get, was never this difficult. How the fuck did I mange it before? It works you know, just FYI.

I want to stop arguing. Stop fighting. Just sink into bliss, stand on my tiptoes for a kiss, and reminisce.
But this is life, specifically mine.

Hopeless Romantic?
Hopeless would be exactly right.


Back to my sulking.

Thanks for dropping by.

No, this is not how I usually write.


Ps- If you did not understand a single thing, thats okay. My brain is retarded.

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Just a Quickie : Giveaway news & a sexy Book Trailer.

I entered this  giveaway, and its pretty cool so maybe you'd like to check it out?

Oh, my friend in the states got one of the prizes I won, entering such giveaways!
Haha, funny story really, he doesnt read much, and especially not chick lit.
So anyway, he gets this package which says 'The Naughty List' on it and hes like, WTF. Haha, he actually thought it was some kinda porn scam, The poor guy. Thank god he remembered in time that I had won those books... or else he was going to throw it out, and report it.

Anyway here is the giveaway!

Win an ARC of Beautiful Darkness, the sequel to Beautiful Creatures here!

I loooved Beautiful Creatures. It was about the sweetest Paranormal romance ever.  If you dont have it in your TBR pile, or if you havnt read it, you should be ashamed of yourself.

Ooh, so I was browsing around and found this awesome book trailer. I have GOT to read this. Sounds super sexy.



Polyvore it!

So, I've seen a lot of people do this, and I thought, why not? I've been on Polyvore since three whole years! And for the first two and a half, I LOOOVVVEEDDD it. It was so gorgeous- and creating all those sexy sets out of the adorable plethora of items was fun fun fun.

Anyway, so when I have nothing better to blog about, I'll be posting a set over here once or twice a week, and you guys have to tell me where its cool OR FAZOOL.
Hahaha. Okay no.
Just let me know if you like it okay?


So this is a Harry Potter set I made waaayyy back. Yeah. HP rocks. Have you seen the new Deathly Hallows trailer?
I for one, can not wait for November.

Much Love,


Saturday, July 17, 2010


So, the folks just dropped another one of their bombs.
We're apparently moving to Lahore.

At first, my thoughts were all around the 'WHAT THE FUCK' phrase. I mean, THERE IS NO PROPER BOOK STORE IN LAHORE.
I mean yeah, they have plenty of old book shops, but no proper Book Store with Brand New, very Recent and the Latest books.

Also, we JUST moved in Febuary from this old, run down place where all three of us (my sisters and I) shared one dingy room, to this brand spanking new, sexy house where I have my own room with a red walls and zebra print blinds.
I mean, give all of that up to move yet again into some rented old house, where we wont even be allowed to change the freakin' wall color? And what if the houses are too expensive and I have share again? *Shudders*.

And my friends? I was just starting to make good ones, and get all settled in my A level college, but now, I'll have to start all over.
From scratch. And its common knowledge that I SUCK at making friends and being friendly. I mean, for the first few months you could always, always find me sitting in the Library, reading one of my books, during my free periods. Its not like I'm a complete loser, I had friends, but our schedules were different. So it was sad and very pathetic.

But anyway.

It could be that my Dad changes his mind at the last second. Hes like that.
But his indecisiveness really stinks. It puts all of us in a limbo. And limbos are not cool.

Its not that I dont want to move. It wouldn't be that bad, aside from the no-friends, no-bookshops thing. I mean, my aunt has a college there, she runs it, and I would easily get admission there. And the whole of my Mom's side of the family, and most of my Dad's side lives there- so thats cool. I love my Mom's-side-of-the-family. They're all awesome people and its always fun meeting them. My Dad's side on the other hand- not so much.

Anyway, the point is. I hope my Dad makes a decision soon and stops being so annoying.

Also, I wish this place was real, minus the candy hookers, of course. 

More Later,

Much Love,


Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Bewitched, Bothered and Bewildered.

Its been ages since my last post!
And I apologies, but you see, I was busy having the time of my life in Lahore!
I dont have any family here, in Karachi, and it was such an awesome change to meet everyone back in Lahore. I came back just yesterday. And guess what? My BESTESTEST friend in the whole wide world is BACK from Canada!
You have NO idea how happy I am! We're finally meeting up after a whole year tomorrow and I cant wait. She got me some books and a lot of candy! Yum yum. :D

I also got this amazing book from Lahore. It features three paranormal short stories. So far I've only read one, but it was awesome! I cant wait to read the other two.

So, while getting on the airplane to Karachi, I kept wishing that the person sitting next to me would be a  really hot guy. But because this is ME we're talking about, it turned out to be one of those many creepy old men that populate our city. Anyway, so I was disappointed and stuff, but the the worst part was, reading this book in front of him.

I probably shocked the poor fellow with my baysharmy. (forwardness?) I mean I was reading a book with a half naked girl on the cover! Tauba Tauba man. He probably thought I was one of those 'fast' girls who talked to boys and wore capri pants.
The horror.

Anyway, here is the blurb in case you want to check it out yourself! {I would totally recomend it to chicklit and paranormal romance lovers!}

For the first time in one volume, the New York Times bestselling author presents three tales of paranormal romance.

In "Everything She Does is Magick," a trio of matchmaking witches chooses unsuspecting little Nathan McBride as the perfect mate for their baby niece. The future looks rosy indeed, except for one little catch: they must keep him a virgin!...A lady private eye on the run from some dangerous gangsters invokes a spell of protection in a fit of desperation--and conjures up a dashing musketeer looking for his damsel in distress in "Musketeer By Moonlight."...And in "The Con and the Crusader," Jack McCain jumps into a well-and into the past. Mistaken for a criminal, he's headed for prison, until he's freed-with a wedding proposal! 

I also saw Toy Story 3, and thankfully was not disappointed.
It was funny, adorable and even had a hint of romance! {Okay, so it was seriously that, a hint- but still!}
If you loved the first two, I'm positive you'll love this one as well.

Now that I'm back, I really want to catch up to Pretty Little Liars again! Have you guys seen it yet? If you have, dont you just love it? I'm on the second book at the moment and the forth episode. They're pretty good  so far!

I think the prettiest of them is Aria and then maybe Emily. What do you think?

Also, what awesome things have you guys done so far? Hows summer 2010 working out for you?!

I love getting feedback from my fabulous followers!

Okay, now I gotta jet.

Till next time,